What I've learned from today...

(This may seem like a girly-post. And I know I have some guy readers, and I'd really like their opinion on this topic too. So read on if you will!)

You know how sometimes you go about your normal day and then all of a sudden your friend laughs at you for no reason? I mean, what's so funny, right? You're not trying to be funny, and for all you know they are laughing at something you did weird or wrong. Well that happened to me today at work to a girl I didn't even know that well.

Let me preface by saying I work at a deli shop to pay my rent for the time being while I'm in school. So once the sandwiches are done I call out the names, smile and give them their order. Friendly customer service, right? Well this lady I'm talking about is basically my manager there. After I call out a name she bursts into a fit of laughter. After asking what is wrong she said "You are just so cute and innocent." I asked her to explain more. She said "You just stand there and smile so innocently, it's cute!" I smile and shake my head. It's weird. I disagree because I wasn't trying to be cute, I was being myself!

"Do I have a cute calling voice?" My friend/roommate Nicky asks.

"No, you have more of a sultry, sexy voice," the manager responds.

"So I'm not sexy?" I respond.

"No," my manager responds. "But that's okay because people like 'cute' too!"

Well in my opinion, people called 'cute' are kind of downgraded I guess when somebody else is called 'sexy' right after them. Don't you think? Or am I just over-reacting here? Because I tried to explain this to them, but they didn't understand. They just kept saying "Just take the compliment!" But it's not a compliment really if someone gets the better compliment after you, is it? In my mind it almost cancels out the other compliment like it didn't really matter.

So I was talking to Nicky about it later because I couldn't stop thinking about it. She reassured me that she agreed with our manager in saying that I was cute, but also agreed the way she did it was awkward. (It really was!) And then we talked about that it's hard to see the 'cuteness' in ourselves when we are looking at others. We tend to compare ourselves to them when really our beauty isn't comparative. It's unique and we should accept it for what it is.

I heard a quote once saying "The qualities that people envy are usually the qualities they already have. That should make us try just a little harder to be ourselves." So I guess what I'm saying is that I might have my cute moments. It's bound to happen. But if I am so envious of someone else, I can't really see that I posses those qualities I want long for too, just in a different fashion. And it does kind of make me want to be myself a little more. Because I think it's better than the opposite happening to me. What I mean is, at least they look at me and laugh instead of look at me and cringe. You know those people I'm talking about. I'm glad I could spread a little happiness to my manager in the long run and I think I can pass that along to all the customers I come in contact at work with too.

So my questions for you dear readers:
1. If you are a guy, what do you think of this? I mean, is it really something guys do? Strive to gain qualities that you see in other guys that you admire?

Commenter shout-out time!
Pro: I seriously LOVE that site you gave me. Thank you thank you thank you! :)
Cole Garret: I got an award from him on his blog. Thanks for reading and commenting Cole! :)

P.S. If you read this far, you are awesome. I haven't posted anything about my novel or my trip to Croatia this summer so I was thinking about doing one of those. Which one would you rather hear about? My few weeks in Croatia or an excerpt from my novel? [and I mean short excerpt]

After my month long hiatus...

This is RIDICULOUS! Seriously, I haven't blogged in a MONTH!? Thanks to Kaylee who commented on my last post today which reminded me about the blog-o-sphere.

It's funny, because so much can change in one month! Let me recap...
1. That boy I was talking about is dating another girl now.
2. I had to DTR with that guys roommate...awkwaaarrd. I didn't even realize was into me.
3. An old friend is now suddenly taking an interest in me. (Not complaining)
4. The terrible roommate problems have suddenly vanished and we all get along really well!
5. I went to my first wrock/youtube concert and met my favorite band of all time :)
6. I made jello-shots for the first time!

That last one actually happened yesterday. We threw a roommate party and made drinks and jello shots. When I say threw a roommate party, it was nothing big. We hung out, danced to music, played kings, and took some terribly embarrassing video of us playing DDR. I even saw my roommate take her first shot. Well...it was a half-shot technically, but that's good for her! We don't do this often, so it was nice to just have a nice time at home and have all of us roommates getting along.

Okay that sounded like something just off of the Brady Bunch or something. Sorry.

Anyway, back to reality! The only reason I'm writing a blog post today really is because I literally have nothing that I want to do. I woke up this morning with my eye swollen. Ice helps, but it itches, hurts and is really red. I have no idea what caused this, but I can't put in my contacts and my glasses are out of date. So I get dizzy when I have my glasses on, and I get dizzy when I just have one contact in. I can't win! So seeing as I can't see, I decided not to go to class since I can't take notes. By the way. Imagine me squinting with one eye closed while typing this. Got that visual in your head? Okay I give you permission to laugh. I'm glad no one else is home with me.

I have a test later today, which I have to go to, but that's okay. I should be studying for that, and my test Wednesday and the GRE. Has anyone taken the GRE? It's kicking my butt! You have to know so many vocabulary words that no one in their right mind uses anyway. So why am I being tested on words like impecunious, licentious, pusillanimous and zeitgeist. Am I REALLY ever going to use those words again? No, no I am not. Don't even get me started on the math section...

I don't think I've blogged about this before, but I am doing NaNoWriMo during the month of November. It's National Novel Writing Month for those of you who don't know. I'm attempting to write a 50,000 word novel by the end of November. I've already got 9k, so I think I'm doing pretty good! Yesterday was the first day I didn't write a word though. That kind of scares me a bit that I won't catch up, but hey that's okay! If at the end of the month I only get to 30,000 words, I still have 30,000 words of a novel written! That's much more than I would have had if I just gave up completely! My roommate Nicky thinks I'm absolutely insane for finding writing enjoyable. "Dork" I believe is her word of choice to describe me. I don't care, it's fun!

So questions for you:
You like to blog, right? But do you like to write? They are completely different!

Commenter Shout-out time!

Anastasia B, Katie Weber and Kaylee: I loved all of your comments! Thanks for understanding and offering advice if you could. You guys are seriously awesome! And even more awesome if you read this reply to your comment a MONTH later!